I am so over it.

So I found out yesterday that my mom might have diabetes.   This sucks.  I have to keep it a secret until we get all the test results back.  I just wish that my family could get past all this crap.  I am so over it.  I try my best to get past all this stuff but how can I if this stuff keeps happening.  How is this fair?!?!?!?!?  I can't believe all this crap is happening.  I know God has a plan, but i don't know if I am able to keep going like this.  I do trust God.  I know that he knows what he is doing.  I just wish he could heal something in my family.   My family has to start eating more healthy with is good.  I just wish it could be different.